I can't afford ffs, I probably wouldn't endure the recovery well, and with my luck my sinus cavities and brain would have something crack and I'd get a nasty infection. All on a crappy medical loan.

And I'll probably do this even though my cis friends tell me I'm not ugly. I hate that I want to pass, that it can't just be good enough for me to occasionally get clocked by people who don't care one way or another. Ugh.