I can't afford ffs, I probably wouldn't endure the recovery well, and with my luck my sinus cavities and brain would have something crack and I'd get a nasty infection. All on a crappy medical loan.
And I'll probably do this even though my cis friends tell me I'm not ugly. I hate that I want to pass, that it can't just be good enough for me to occasionally get clocked by people who don't care one way or another. Ugh.
The worst is I messaged my ex to talk about this so I settle down. Gross of me. All just because I saw a trans woman smaller than me, prettier than me, and willing to brag about her speaking voice on OkCupid. I just feel so gross and defective. I know I didn't even accept I was trans a year ago, but estradiol alone won't soften my face or shrink me much more or make my voice okay. Ugh.
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The worst is I messaged my ex to talk about this so I settle down. Gross of me. All just because I saw a trans woman smaller than me, prettier than me, and willing to brag about her speaking voice on OkCupid. I just feel so gross and defective. I know I didn't even accept I was trans a year ago, but estradiol alone won't soften my face or shrink me much more or make my voice okay. Ugh.