@viv @alyx And I get where it comes from, in that a lot of the rhetoric around medical transition is around what great good it does for our emotional wellbeing. But being in a place where you can make yourself happy is not at all the same as automatically being happy and content.

So I'm sort of learning to compare my little "Does gender really matter? It's so arbitrary, and I certainly don't understand my whole mind" feelings with the dysphoria I've lost but can still recall.