And I hate that a big "not comfortable taking to other trans people" thing is that I deep down, sincerely wish I passed and feel anything other than passing is a coping mechanism. I am not one bit ashamed of being trans, but I want to be seen as trans on my terms because I'm not comfortable with a fuck society attitude. I'm a social creature and I hate being clocked. If it were possible to be stealth, I might even consider that.