@bea Less hurt so much as just plain confused. I wanted to date and figure myself out for so long while our relationship was failing. She had become withdrawn and stopped having sex with me, but was still smart and funny and great to talk to. In retrospect, it was depression dampening parts of her.

She's discussing couples therapy, two months after we broke up. I think it's too soon, but I don't want to rule us out. But I'm also curious to date, and hate that I'm so inexperienced. And am probably pan and wish I got to see how that attraction works with people who aren't women.

Pardon my vent.