To be clear, it's not that I think being fat is bad, although I feel like I'd look more feminine with less of a dude tummy. If it were going to my boobs and butt like a cis girl, I'd probably be less annoyed.
And the big thing is that running helps me feel healthy and normal. It's my big destressing thing.
I might actually go for a run this evening, even though I'm tired and just showered. Because the Americanized Chinese Food stand gave me too much food for a small family for $8 and now I feel gross. I believe I got bourbon chicken, general tso's chicken, chow mein, and an eggroll. So much starch and fat to process.