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@ikea_femme I have a lot about this. At least 500 words. I'll write it up later for you and link.
@jamuraa Thanks. I guess the biggest questions I have are "what feelings made you want it?" and "how did you feel about it once it was over and healed?"
I feel so inbetween on it, but I feel like anything that could make me feel at home in my body is worth it.
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@jamuraa plus, I feel like every other trans woman has big feelings, and I'm just trying to find what will alleviate the dissociation and fog. I don't cry when I feel dysphoric, or have a bad day, or even if someone I love dies. I hate it, and transition is the only thing that's chipped at that numbness.
@ikea_femme @jamuraa holy shit uwu
this resonates with me something fierce
@ikea_femme @rey a huge amount of my depersonalization and fog went away after HRT, and another big chunk after the penis was gone. I didn't even realize it was happening before HRT.
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@ikea_femme I've in some ways always wanted a vagina, and just never thought it was possible. I theoretically knew surgery was possible (but I thought it was actually fake) after *that* south park episode. Once I learned more about it, and I accepted that it was the best I was going to get in my lifetime, there were only a few blockers: How to pay for it, whether I could stand the recovery, and if I would be happy with the results. Those went away by looking at post-op neovaginas and talking to friends. (paying for it by insurance).
At ~1 year postop it's alien to me that I ever had a penis. My vagina is good, the best I can hope for.