Why do I keep thinking I'm too boring to be queer? I can't even quantify what that means.
Like, it's part of the usual calculus where I think about if I'm queer or trans enough to belong in the same community as people I admire, which is always a bad place to start. So I start getting mad at myself for figuring out I was trans at 27, or that I prefer to consider myself bi even though I generally prefer women, or that I know nothing about queer culture, or whatever. Also, I feel guilty when people act like I'm brave or working hard to be myself, when it's like, I take pills and wear the clothes I prefer? That's not hard.
I'm lucky I live in a place nobody minds my trans ass.
Also, sometimes I feel like a fake millenial because I enjoy playing roguelikes from time to time as a stress reliever but I see the rest as shit to push in the corner to focus on my studies, and legit don't get e-sports or let's plays. It feels like watching somebody else play crosswords. Makes it weird chatting with peers.
WAIT IGNORE THaT
The epiphany crossword solvers get when they figure out a clue is so cute. They're just so proud of themselves. :3
Want that genre of video to exist.
Which effectively meant I learned quickly that trying to slow down or be nervous about transitioning was a self-defeating attitude.