Why do I keep thinking I'm too boring to be queer? I can't even quantify what that means.
I'm lucky I live in a place nobody minds my trans ass.
Which effectively meant I learned quickly that trying to slow down or be nervous about transitioning was a self-defeating attitude.
Also, sometimes I feel like a fake millenial because I enjoy playing roguelikes from time to time as a stress reliever but I see the rest as shit to push in the corner to focus on my studies, and legit don't get e-sports or let's plays. It feels like watching somebody else play crosswords. Makes it weird chatting with peers.
WAIT IGNORE THaT
The epiphany crossword solvers get when they figure out a clue is so cute. They're just so proud of themselves. :3
Want that genre of video to exist.
@ikea_femme we... have a lot in common, hehe
@ikea_femme If it helps, I feel like that all the time. I know my friends don't think of me that way, and there are even some really excitingly queer people who like me an awful lot, I've come to realize, but damn is the feeling hard to shake.
@listelian The weirdest is when someone says you're an inspiration, and you just think, "why?"
Like, it's part of the usual calculus where I think about if I'm queer or trans enough to belong in the same community as people I admire, which is always a bad place to start. So I start getting mad at myself for figuring out I was trans at 27, or that I prefer to consider myself bi even though I generally prefer women, or that I know nothing about queer culture, or whatever. Also, I feel guilty when people act like I'm brave or working hard to be myself, when it's like, I take pills and wear the clothes I prefer? That's not hard.