**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 20 juin 2017, 00:58

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 20 juin 2017, 00:58

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

20 juin 2017, 00:58

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

trans surgery musings, sex Afficher plus

So somebody I follow on Tumblr got GCS. Good for her. Yet again, I find myself thinking about whether or not I want GCS, since the way I'm living ATM I mostly just think of my genitals jacking off or tucking. I've not really had sex with anybody for a while, and my ex-fiancee only liked when I mounted her for missionary, so I didn't really get to experiment.

Tumblr pal said something that struck me. She said she feels less dysphoria, and I kind of wish my dysphoria centralized on something more concrete than just this general anxiety I look male and can't do much to help it.

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 2017-06-20T01:02:28Z

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

trans surgery musings, sex Afficher plus

Like, if I got GCS, I'd like not having to tuck, and MAYBE I'd enjoy sex more, and I'd not need spiro. But I don't get genital dysphoria as much as I did during puberty.

I'm more bugged by beard shadow (laser is fixing it fast) and my lantern jaw and brow (but the cis women in my family have those pretty pronounced, too).

I hate how my friends say if I can't afford it, I shouldn't worry about it. I can't just live life hoping I magically get tens of thousands of dollars for FFS and GCS, if I decide I want them, I want to get the benefits as soon as money allows and save accordingly. Otherwise, I'll just buy avocado toast.

20 juin 2017, 01:02 · 0 · 3

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 20 juin 2017, 01:05

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 20 juin 2017, 01:05

20 juin 2017, 01:05

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

trans surgery musings, sex Afficher plus

ALSO, most queer people say I have a perfectly fine face (I want to believe them), but cishet pals who are perhaps of a different mindset on surgery than trans people say shit that makes me feel worse.

IE: "Your grandma always told me I'd never be pretty, but I'd always be handsome," My mom, who's been clocked herself a few times.

"You know, there's a lot of ugly women and they don't get their skulls reshaped," a friend over beers.

"I'm generally against plastic surgery, so I wish I could convince you that you pass."