Ugh, I have quite a bit to do today and I've let days of inanition get to me. Trying to compensate with coffee and bupropion
@ikea_femme I don't think the bupropion's giving me much more than side-effects at this point. I need to get on HRT *sighs* first consultation with a counselor isn't for another week
@kara_dreamer good luck! I've felt much calmer and I guess socially warmer on spiro and estradiol.
@ikea_femme I hope it does help! it's odd...for maybe a day or two after I had my big awakening night, I felt clearer-headed than I'd ever been, and I rather hoped it would last, but the fog's closed in again
@kara_dreamer I got that, too. My thing was shaving my legs, and seeing "my" legs for the first time instead of "the legs I have." I think we develop a coping mechanism of dissociating from the wrong body and life and all that, and we lean on it less as we transition. Good luck!
transstuff, dysphoria Afficher plus
@ikea_femme *nods* for me, dysphoria has (among other thing) felt like a constant drain on my cognition. this voice that's been in the back of my head ever since I was young saying, "You're never going to amount to anything because you're just fucked up and wrong." It's sort of nice to know the source at last, but it's still there, still dragging me down