Well, I just watched Grave of the Fireflies, because I figured I needed catharsis. Given I've broken up and started earnestly trying to feel things what with transition. I have more emotions with HRT, but they're still so shallow.
And yes, the movie was incredibly sad. But I didn't cry, and I feel like if I don't work to hold on to that sad, it'll fade away immediately.
I'm on a low dose of effexor. I wonder if that's blunting my affect. Or am I just a fraction of a person? Am I just some weird automaton, trying to stuff myself with feelings that will never stick?
moping/hrt Afficher plus
@ikea_femme I mean, I never cried before HRT and even after nearly 3 years I still hardly ever cry. But I do cry once in awhile, so that's something. Other emotions seem to have made it past my "dismiss/dissociate" response more easily, mostly the positive ones.
I've been on progesterone for a year and a half, and while it gave me mood swings until I started cycling it (2wks on, 2wks off), I didn't notice any real increase in emotional intensity. That came with letting myself express them, in my case through poetry and music.
Also the cancer risk increase is predicated on studies done on post-menopausal cis women, so take it with a grain of salt.