The more I think about it, the more I realize a lot of my face dysphoria isn't really how my face looks TODAY, but the fact that a lot of women who get FFS have sort of teen like features afterwards, and it stings that I never got to be a teen girl and that while my face looks kinda okay for a woman who's gonna be 30 before she knows it, I'll never get to look in the mirror and see a teen girl, and I'm not sure surgery would fix that in any practical sense.