**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 24 mai 2017, 00:49

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 24 mai 2017, 00:49

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

24 mai 2017, 00:49

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

I think I've realized I want GCS, but I kind of force myself from accepting I want it because I know it's so pricey and the first step towards getting it, for me, in a way I can feel proud of, is getting a job with either a serious enough paycheck or insurance plan to cover trans surgeries.

Soooooo, it's millenial adulthood worries, but with a neoyonic twist.

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 2017-05-24T00:56:08Z

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

trans surgery Afficher plus

Like, for me, I feel the same kind of longing thinking about people I follow online getting GCS that I felt as an egg looking at Christine Love.

I keep thinking, "Oh, did we really evolve to have surgeons rework our genitals?" and stuff, which I guess is your Lapsed Bible Study Teen Applying Old Fallacies to New Problems situation.

I feel womanhood, I see a woman from the waist up in the mirror, and I'm not happy having genitals I hide and used to think of ripping off.

Why am I making this so hard for myself?

24 mai 2017, 00:56 · 0 · 1

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 24 mai 2017, 01:03

**✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨** @ikea_femme · 24 mai 2017, 01:03

24 mai 2017, 01:03

✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme

trans surgery Afficher plus

A part of me wants to get the ball rolling on this with psychiatrists and so on, or at least figure out how to talk myself down to an orchiectomy instead. Although getting an orchi and needing to keep the skin elastic with daily massages sounds so hellish. And I think the fact I'm broke for any kind of luxury beyond a cute pair of shoes would become very apparent very quickly.

So I need to get serious about job searching.