@alyx I like to think I thought about it on some level for more than a month. Like, I hated puberty in middle school, read up on the procedure of GRS, and thought the teacher mentioning some people are trans in sex ed was really interesting (yeah, one year we had a progressive teacher who gave a shit about LGBTQ issues and heterosex, the rest of the years were gym teachers who thought sex was gross). And as an adult, I kept reading and rereading the trans megathread OP on Something Awful. I hate to say it, I think proposing to my fiancee and feeling so little was a sign something was broken and needed fixing.