I hate how I'm so petty. My mom accidentally misgenders me all day, and talks about how great it is that my sister's handwriting and life skills are better with her new autism chiropractor guy. And my stupid brain just wants her to say I'm a capable person for wrapping up college and transitioning. I always think I'll be in my sister's shadow. And I hate the implications of that thought and realizing I'm female.

I just wish I could get that recognition. That I have struggles and I'm working through them. But flunking out of college the first time makes everything I do look like catch-up.