I am doing a trial separation with my fiancee, partly because one of my lost experiences is being a single woman, partly because she's really emotionally dependent these days. She'll cough and worry she has cancer, or start crying and need to cuddled to fall asleep and settle down.

I hate how this feels so unsustainable, but that I also still feel so much love for her. I don't want her to assume I'm coming back, but I don't want to break her heart with a real breakup.

I'm the worst.