@jamuraa Like, I've had more angst over this than GRS. Which is funny since castration thoughts were my first inkling something was up genderwise. With bottom surgery, I'm more practical in terms of "could I learn to enjoy sex with another organ?" or "do I really hate tucking that much?"

Sorry for the word vomit. I have so much shit on my mind with finals.

@ikea_femme I'm one of the lucky few - I don't believe I will have a problem getting FFS if I really believe that I need it.

I do think I look cute and feminine most of the time - it's about a flip of the coin whether I'll hate my face on a particular day. As for recovery - yea, that's one I'm worried about because I hear that it could be more tricky than bottom surgery even. I recovered quick from that.

Partially I have intense distrust of people who have reason to not hurt me. I'm lucky enough that I don't get a lot of hate, and don't need it socially sometimes, but I have that bug "what if" in my head now.