When you're in a room full of people gushing about how much they love their jobs and having a buddy in the company made all the difference but everyone is passively pushing me out...
And taking credit for your work while cutting you out of that conversation
I think I'm cursed. If my own best friend forgot my existence, how can I expect coworkers to... remember that I'm a coworker???
Also the same lady who called my boss to scold me about how I smile and talk too aggressively and act threatening (while coincidentally the only black person in the room) is also in charge of the buddy list I signed up for. I didn't get a buddy and I thought maybe not enough people signed up but everyone else in the room sure as hell had a buddy
@guerrillarain and y'know it's extra shitty b/c it's like "well shit did she *ACTUALLY* forget or is it b/c im black" and you always wanna think the former, even tho people arent ANYWHERE near that dumb, consistently.
Like i have a manager that CLEARLY treats me differently than any of the other 3 devs here. Ive also been here longer, but you would figure people dont garner more disrespect the longer they're here (that's TYPICALLY not the case anywhere).
@guerrillarain i learned that white people will treat me differently even if they're not aware they're doing it.
@somarasu Ugh, the shittiest part is all the gaslighting of "are you SURE it wasn't just an accident?" "maybe they made a mistake" like I'm not already trying to give people the benefit of the doubt even if they clearly don't want it.
@guerrillarain AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG i *fucking* hate that.
that's like that fucking Obi-Wan wave
"you dont see any racism here~"
@guerrillarain and ofc it's gonna be the ONLY time they make THAT particular mistake.
@somarasu @guerrillarain *ridiculously appropriate and well timed group hug*
@guerrillarain oh, that white [REDACTED]