people are starting to notice Im really fucking depressed at the moment but every time I try and explain why and what actions people around me are taking that make me feel bad, everything I say is dismissed

@Concerned_Commy mostly people want to do the right thing but want it to be easy; if you make them feel like they're responsible for your suffering they won't like that (even if it's true) so if you want to change their behaviour towards you the hack is to give them a way to feel good about it

@gracie how the hell do I do that

@Concerned_Commy a spoonful of sugar—tell them which of their behaviours actually help as well as which hurt (even if really they're all one and not the other)
that way you're handing them a positive vision of themselves they can then live up to

@gracie I dont think I can get that to work

@Concerned_Commy it's hard going, typicals don't think like the rest of us, they need handling with care

@gracie tbh it would just be easier to kill myself at this point than convince them of anything

@Concerned_Commy suicide is always easier, that doesn't make it preferable
it's easier for them to be assholes, that doesn't make it a good choice

@gracie its preferable for me to commit suicide

@Concerned_Commy you're weighing the immediate cessation of pain against all of your future, it's a difficult call
I'm in constant physical pain, there's an easy way to make it stop; but that way I lose everything

@gracie I dont really have that much to lose

@Concerned_Commy you don't know that, you have so much in you, there's so much you can be and do, so much you can give the world

@gracie why should I give to the world when it only takes

@Concerned_Commy why communism?

@gracie what

@Concerned_Commy fuck I have a meeting, I'll be back

@Concerned_Commy i mean if you really didn't give a fuck about other people communism wouldn't make any sense

@gracie oncemore, what

@Concerned_Commy why would you care about the distribution of surplus labour if you thought people weren't worthy of sharing what you have to give?

@gracie we dont live in a communist society though

@Concerned_Commy if people were irremediably shit there'd be no need to work towards it

@gracie your right, its not practical to work towards it in this country for many many fucking years

@Concerned_Commy that's what they want you to think
it's incremental, a few years ago the labour party looked like a dead loss, then Corbyn; baby steps