Why can't I just go see my doctor and say that I want to start taking hormones? Why can't I admit to my parents that I do not want to look like a boy, as they imagine?

Am I particularly a coward in front of responsibility? I always expect people to do what I should do, to take care of me.. I get this time nobody is gonna miraculously detect my problem
My whole life will sucks, I feel it already

I feel so bad for complaining everytime

@ed the patriarchy doesn't want you to transition. Every queering of the heteronormativity weakens the patriarchy's power. Parents and doctors get caught up in patriarchal power structures whether they mean to or not. But you have us. Never feel bad for complaining. We're all here to support one another against a hostile patriarchal hegemony. Together we're strong.