I got hit with two of my major triggers yesterday, and I'm honestly not dealing with it particularly well. I managed to distract myself most of today, but the self destructive feeling part is still there.
And that'd be fine-ish, but I'm back at work tomorrow.
@eden work might be a distraction from it I guess? I've had moments this holiday season where I've caught myself longing to be back at work and it all to be over
@gracie Yeah, that's true! I've been doing a fair amount of editing of masto stuff on my local dev to keep my mind off it today. It seems to be hitting me harder now I'm tired & not able to work on it.
@gracie Tried that last night. I am still pissed off I guess? Dickhead housemate is being all nervous around me and it's making everyone else awkward. I'd rather they just fucked off trying to give me advice because they think all my relationship issues are just BPD issues in disguise. I'm struggling with them and I want to sort it myself, I don't need backseat relationship shit.
@gracie Well this happened on Christmas and I didn't want to disrupt the day. Today they've been with their partner all day and I just haven't had any private time to be like "Look this is why I'm pissed, stop bringing it up!"
@eden deep breaths, let it go for the night, literally breathe it out; you can have that conversation in your own time, put your attention on something that's good for you for now
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@gracie Well this happened on Christmas and I didn't want to disrupt the day.
Today they've been with their partner all day and I just haven't had any private time to be like "Look this is why I'm pissed, stop bringing it up!"
So just high tension :(