I got hit with two of my major triggers yesterday, and I'm honestly not dealing with it particularly well. I managed to distract myself most of today, but the self destructive feeling part is still there.

And that'd be fine-ish, but I'm back at work tomorrow.

@eden work might be a distraction from it I guess? I've had moments this holiday season where I've caught myself longing to be back at work and it all to be over

@gracie Yeah, that's true! I've been doing a fair amount of editing of masto stuff on my local dev to keep my mind off it today. It seems to be hitting me harder now I'm tired & not able to work on it.

@eden could you sleep? Maybe an early night would help if you're up in the morning. Or if you feel the need to vent, go for it.