I don't know why I beat myself up so much about not being able to do something, even when I have like no commitment to it.

I don't know if this is really common, and anyone reading this will just be like
"Yeah, duh, you're human"

Or more specifically
"Yeah duh, feeling overly responsible is really common with people with childhood-issues"

But like, I went to a group and wanted to do more for it, but I'm currently trying to balance stuff and I _really_ struggle bcos of how little I can manage, so I'd rather _not_ go and avoid feeling like I have to do stuff, than go and just do what little I can?