I'd quite like to give up right now.

I know I'm switching, I want to tell people to fuck off who I care about.

I've basically agreed to something that I know is harmful to me because switch.

It's just.. Dumb. I feel totally disconnected and floaty and everything is painful. Listening to music was painful, so was coding, was teaching.

I just want to cry and shake and never be looked at again. And hurt myself.

And yet an hour ago I was content being happy towards people because bpd. I mostly wanted to write this just to show the other side of my bpd.