ebeth @ebeth@witches.town

yes yes yes

http://www.shondaland.com/act/a15876574/timesup-on-harassing-your-public-librarian/

i am *very* lucky to work in a supportive environment where i'm confident my colleagues and managers will back me up when i stand up for myself and even then i often still err on the side of not wanting to escalate or be rude

we've talked about this stuff a LOT at my library and there still isn't a perfect solution; i can't even imagine working the kind of job i do in am environment where those conversations don't take place

i feel like fixing a lot of health stuff has made me such a baby about pain

like i know i'm just being unreasonably harsh with myself but sometimes i complain about something and then i think "ok but remember when it was 1000x worse this is fine"

but also like....i *should* be raising my standards for acceptable levels of pain like the fact that i'm not settling for "not as bad as before" is a good thing probably i hope

the concept of menstruation was a mistake

@DialMforMara
@srol
it's also functional, with phones getting bigger it's hard for people with small hands to hold them easily. you can grip the knob on the back and that gives you a more secure grasp of the phone

if my phone were any bigger than it is right now i'd probably get one. i seek out small phones on purpose but most smartphones are just too big for people to easily hold one-handed now

i can count on one hand (less, honestly) the number of birdsite personalities i follow on here but so far not one of them has responded to or connected with me the way genuinely invested mastodon people have

so i'm honestly probably just gonna finally call it and unfollow all of them/go with my initial instinct of sticking with new internet friends for a new internet space

🍍 🍍 🍍

if i'm being real the cure was waiting a week or so because i'm always going in waves

but the wine was nice too

oh look i'm posting again turns out the cure for depression is wine*

*this is absolutely not true i am not a doctor please do not take my advice**

**getting pleasantly tipsy tonight was still a good life choice tbqh

@lizardsquid choo choo choo doo choo choo choo choo doo

@Concerned_Catgirl yeah that's really tough and i think ppl underestimate how hard it is to dream/remember dreams when you're not sleeping well

what might be more useful to you right now is just a general sleep journal, like try to get in the habit of noting when you go to bed, when you wake up in the middle of the night, etc. the more of a routine (or lack thereof) you can bring to a doctor the better idea they're gonna have of what might help

fwiw my sleep patterns are still kinda fucked up but i've managed to adjust so that i work late and stay up late and sleep in and that helps a LOT. trying to adjust to the typical 9-5 schedule was killing me

@Concerned_Catgirl is the purpose of the dream journal part of some larger figuring out what's wrong with your sleep patterns thing?

because i could *never* remember dreams for a long-ass time, like honestly no recollection of ever having dreamed at all, and it turned out there was a lot of health shit that was keeping me from actually sleeping well. like i know everyone says that everyone dreams but i honestly don't think i hit REM long enough to have dreams for a good chunk of time

anyway if this is medical shit be patient with yourself, i eventually got things sorted and while i'm not great at remembering dreams i wake up now knowing i at least had them

still wouldn't have paid money for it tho

tbt to when i saw the killers live because i was offered a free ticket

i absolutely refuse to admit i had fun but also.......i did tbh

i just found out a song that i've always vaguely liked but never knew where it came from was by the killers so that's my night slightly ruined

SO made pasta and didn't drink any of the accompanying wine so i guess i'm finishing this bottle myself how will i ever manage

it's good shit too, i'm not usually a wine person so i don't like spending $ on it but he found a half price deal and i can defs taste the difference

@typhlosion got a haaaaaand

am i too late to post this

https://witches.town/media/N1ak4e32L9JWnSp66Ug