fuck i heard about the shooting last night but i was at work and i've gotten really good at compartmentalizing at work

now i've seen the video and i can already feel the anxiety rising D: shootings always put me on edge

i'm seeing fellow librarians talking about reviewing our active shooter training which is a good idea but also the scariest fucking training i've ever done

i don't want to get shot. i don't want anyone to get shot ever again. this is absurd in a deeply, deeply unfunny way and i'm so sick of it