i think that today i had a little epiphany why I as a white cishet male am attracted to queer and also witchy scenes, why i find them more comfortable than the normalized chauvinist masculine exchanges - it's vulnerability. it so much about how we cis men are supposed to present ourselves in order to prove our worthiness in society. men don't cry or whine, men shouldn't be pussies, toughen up, got to be strong etc... i know it's all false, but my heart still doesnt. and it's conflicting inside.