@grime_witch that sounds v wise

these days I wonder if a lot of my early experiences with romantic love were more like, fulfilling an expectation rather than a genuine Feeling on my part, and now that I've noticed that it just doesn't really work anymore

my most recent romantic relationships ended bc they wanted more than I was able or willing to give and I could never really figure out why other than 'this just doesn't seem worth spending my limited supply of energy on'

my long-term partner has been exempt bc we're already close friends who relate/rely on other levels than the romantic & he has other partners to fill those needs for him