@NaHO my partner doesn't really understand, I think. we're very different and he's not very good at understanding that - I think he doesn't always remember that not everyone feels or sees things the way he does. he doesn't try to push me to do things, but there's such a contrast between our moods/energy levels that it can feel very alienating, and highlights what I often see as a deficiency in myself - something that's always been missing that so many other people seem to have

@cmdrspacebabe that's why I can't be with someone wo can't understand or feel (and it's not there fault) that we can share so much and also have a very distant/quiet day. I'm not that afraid of people or outside, it's just if you cross the line and ask too much socializing for me, I just become crazy, doing dumb shit and panic. I feel you and hope you will find a path in that shi*** situation. At least, my only tips is "if the problem isn't solved, talk more about it" Stay strong.

@NaHO my partner doesn't so much mind quiet days, but he also likes going out and being social a lot more than I do, and his kind of socializing takes a lot out of me. it's not so much of a barrier really - we're poly and he has other people who can share that part of his life with him - but it's hard not to be a little jealous of his energy sometimes.

@cmdrspacebabe indeed, indeed, I was more talking about staying at home most part of the time doing stuff on the computer. My girlfriend always have a breakdown if she stay at home too much, and needed me when she was outside.(insecurities and depression you know) Kinda hard time. But recently she found a job, and we hope that will make next days easier for us (5 hours a day I don't have her home so we love passing time together when she come back). It's not the same for you but still

@cmdrspacebabe i'm not a big help, here. Hope you will find peace at least.

@NaHO I work full time so I don't get all that much time at home alone, which is challenging - much easier for me to recharge by myself (though at least partner and I don't share a room; I'd be much worse off then :p)
support is helpful regardless. thank you ❤

@tobascodagama I always feel like I make situations uncomfortable for everyone because I'm so visibly Not Into It. conversations tend to die around me and it feels like I just suck the energy out of the room.

@cmdrspacebabe It's not really your responsibility to keep a conversation going, though. Like, it's probably not actually your fault if the conversation has a lull, that's just your brain lying to you. But even if your brain isn't lying to you, you don't need to feel bad about it.