**💫Alyx** @alyx · 2018-01-30T00:22:06Z

💫Alyx @alyx

suicide has been crossing my mind every day since before the holidays. i don't feel close to acting but jfc it's annoying to dwell on it constantly

i got new insurance that will likely pay for a therapist starting in march. long needed

my baby-saving trump-voting flag-saluting mother tried to make contact before the holiday but i have not yet replied. i write several responses in my head every day but it's better not to say anything, because that would start a new phase in having to deal with her betrayal

then again, i'm not exactly thriving in this avoidance pattern either

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**Vampire Harpy** @thindol@octodon.social · 30 jan. 2018, 01:10

**Vampire Harpy** @thindol@octodon.social · 30 jan. 2018, 01:10

30 jan. 2018, 01:10

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@alyx I don't have much to offer, but I can offer internet hugs. *hugs*

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 02:26

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 02:26

30 jan. 2018, 02:26

💫Alyx @alyx

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@thindol i appreciate it.

**Will Springer** @Skirmisher@mastodon.social · 30 jan. 2018, 03:24

**Will Springer** @Skirmisher@mastodon.social · 30 jan. 2018, 03:24

30 jan. 2018, 03:24

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@alyx 💜💜💜

**cilia plath** @cute_weeds@glitch.social · 30 jan. 2018, 21:10

**cilia plath** @cute_weeds@glitch.social · 30 jan. 2018, 21:10

30 jan. 2018, 21:10

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@alyx I think I know that feeling. It's aggravating and depressing when those moods start dragging me down more frequently.

Glad you'll have therapy covered. Thank fucking christ for small mercies.

I was just thinking about you. I felt like I hadn't seen any of your posts for a while, but maybe I just missed your toots. 🤷

♥ ♥ ♥

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 22:32

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 22:32

30 jan. 2018, 22:32

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@cute_weeds oh that's nice to hear <3

i've just been sad and wrapped up in a RL thing that takes a lot of time

thanks to a vidconf thing i was just forced to get my "new" mic set up (a big mental hurdle) so hopefully i'll start streaming again soon

**liffy 💜** @lifning@cybre.space · 30 jan. 2018, 22:41

**liffy 💜** @lifning@cybre.space · 30 jan. 2018, 22:41

30 jan. 2018, 22:41

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@alyx whew... I'm still sorta miffed at my mom for voting third-party in a swing state, but voting *for* Trump is a whole 'nother ball game. x_x I'm so sorry things ended up that way.
hopefully that therapist will also be able to help you make sense of the situation with your mom and process whether and/or how to reply...
I'm relieved you're not close to acting on those thoughts. 💜

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 23:31

**💫Alyx** @alyx · 30 jan. 2018, 23:31

30 jan. 2018, 23:31

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@lifning thanks, L. you're very kind.