a comfortably middle-class acquaintance offered me an extra ticket to a midnight showing of a cool flick i wouldn't mind re-watching. BART will be closed by the time it lets out, so it's already an annoying scenario but whatev, that's SF. guess i'll drive and try to find parking.

let's meet for dinner before i said, as the real reason i'm going is to talk with folks.

but they picked a tapas bar (not really dinner imo) i don't find affordable that's in the worst parking area of the city and over 2 miles from the venue. so that would be finding parking twice for a meal i don't feel affordable.

double fail. weighing options.

bowed out of the highly non-optimal dinner (rejected host's offer to pay my way) and feel a weird mix of shame and wanting to cry a little

i guess it's sad to miss out on a good time