My dream last night pulled me out of sleep. We were all witches (trans actually) and power battles were happening... I wish I could remember the song I sang to mock the most powerful one, after my gambit failed and her supporters held me down. The victory was mine, though, in that moment
@Eve this is amazing ✨
@alyx it felt wonderful (in the sense of "a wonder")
@Eve i am very interested in how i experience exhilarating feelings like that so rarely (and often then only in dreams), and how i can feel that way more often
@alyx me too. This is the/a goal... outside dreams it doesn't seem to necessarily correlate with any particular activity or excitement though which I find very interesting
@Eve myself, i mostly live in very tightly regimented loops where i do the same things / go to the same places every day / week / month
it's when i break out of those patterns, like the too-rare occasions when i travel, that i start to notice more bumps above my normal baseline
i'm sure i'd have more good-feeling moments if i could ever dispel my constant anxiety and better learn to live in the moment, too
@alyx breaking the patterns seems to me the path to a greater happiness. This is what I want to do... it's also required for living in the moment I think. My own battles with anxiety are diminished when I remember these moments when I am larger...