Vedia Lupae @Ulfra_Wolfe@witches.town

I'm quickly becoming a fan of the band Blockhead.

Really good music to get high to.

ah, this heated up vehicle that runs on tracks must be this new mental contagion, I must push my body into the air to board this vehicle.

And her drawback:

Hedonistic: You are a creature of pleasure and comfort. Whenever you spend a day without gaining reward or treasure (at least 10 or more gold pieces) or spending an hour on entertainment or pleasure, attempt a DC 20 Fortitude save at the end of that day. If you fail, you begin the next day fatigued. This fatigue lasts 4 hours, or until you receive a reward or sufficient entertainment or pleasure.

I like her traits.

Combat: Inspiring Rush -- Once per day, when making a charge attack, gain a +1 trait bonus to attack and damage rolls, as do any allies who make a charge attack before the beginning of your next turn.

Faith: Principled -- -2 to Bluff, +2 trait bonus on saving throws against charm, compulsion, and emotion effects.

Social: Natural Born Leader -- +1 morale bonus on Will to avoid mind-altering effects for cohorts, followers, or summoned creatures. If you take the Leadership feat, +1 trait bonus to Leadership score.

So in Pathfinder, I made Nettle with a custom Free Sheepfolk race -- they're the ones to escaped the bonds of slavery from orc slavers. https://www.myth-weavers.com/sheet.html#id=1458250

I need ADD meds so badly.

Why have I always delayed getting them?

I've wasted a decade.

In all truth, looking at things objectively, I still don't see myself worthy of resources. I'm a privileged fuck who won't ever be worth much. I can't put my back into labor. I can't take joy from working. Even helping my friends I'm imperfect with. For all the people singing my praises, they seem to think I'm something I'm not.

I'm just.

I'm not worth it.

Feeling depressed and hopeless and crying.

Thinking about it, I can't think of a lot of times I've really had fun.

Do I even know what "fun" is?

My brain might just be too broken to appreciate it.

Cuddling with dragons. 👍 👌