I don't care who you are or what you do: you deserve respect as an individual being. You should never have to compromise yourself for another. If you feel so unlovable you have to stick with an abuser, that's just false. Demand respect of your boundaries, of your personhood. Consensual submission is of course fine, but it's still up to you whether you consent or not and you can always say "no" to your dom. Anyone that says otherwise are those who don't respect you.