When you dearly want to kill yourself so you try to distract yourself with one of the few movie you didn't see of your fav director and there's a suicidal attempt in it.... currently crying and even more awful mood...

@Estelwen That's why this kind of things should have TW 😠.

@Sylvhem meh... i don't want to spoil myself..;

@Estelwen Personnaly, I prefer to not have this kind of surprises :/.

@Sylvhem with my ADHD, i would just expect it during the whole watching processus, etc and it would ruined the watching processus for me...

@Estelwen Oh, so it's not a good solution either :(.

@Sylvhem the one good solution is dying that is all...

@Estelwen No, please, don't do that :(.

@Sylvhem well we'll see

@Estelwen Don't harm yourself, please :(.
You're great. You're an amazing person.

@Sylvhem for the harm, even if it's not much it's already done.

@Estelwen I wish you won't go further :/.

@Sylvhem @Estelwen I totally agree with Sylvhem :(

@Ulfra_Wolfe @Sylvhem sometime we don't always get what we want ime will tell

@Estelwen @Sylvhem Suicide is a permanent solution. There's no stepping back from it. No stopping the cascade of people hurt. People that will see things that remind them of you, and feel hurt and in pain every time they do.

I know, I'm still haunted by the ghost of Tipsy wherever I go. Please consider other options. There's so much more to life and so many unopened doors on your path.

@Ulfra_Wolfe @Sylvhem i know that i tell it to myself everyday... but here i am again...

@Estelwen @Sylvhem Do you see a therapist? Have you told them?

Have you made a list of people to contact when you start feeling suicidal? I'd highly recommend it. People you know you can talk to and feel safe around. I used to keep a post-it note on my computer of people I cared about that I wanted to talk about more, so even in my darkness I could see people I cared about & reach out to them.

Sometimes just a bit more distraction helps over the rough patches.

@Ulfra_Wolfe @Sylvhem I've seen a therapist unttil last month and i cdidn't help so i left her. I don't have a list cause nobody knows my exact adress for this reason. I don't want to bother anymore people with it. they hae their own issues. ANd distractions is what ihave been doing since since afternoon

@Estelwen @Sylvhem We all come together, hon. Your friends *want* to help you. I know I'd rather Tipsy came to me instead of killing herself. I wish she did with all of my heart. I would have rewound time to be there for her.

Please reconsider.

@Ulfra_Wolfe @Sylvhem reconsidering is a running train of thoughts in my head....

@Estelwen @Sylvhem Do you have post-it notes or a page to write on?

I really want you to start writing down people who you care about, and any contact info you know on them.

Can you do this at least?

@Ulfra_Wolfe @Sylvhem why would i do that, my brain is here for that

@Estelwen @Sylvhem It helps to have a list to consult I find. Maybe just try having it around at your computer or where you are when most depressed? People to contact.