Just had a strange thought as to whether I might be lying to everyone, including myself. If I'm just writing myself into what I need to be, and that means I'm hiding who I truly am? Am I giving up my core ideals and supplanting them with what's useful to me?

It doesn't feel that way, but when I think about it too much, it leads to overall thoughts about how I'm never sure I truly believe what I think I am, that I'm an amalgamation of cells with a fake identity to begin with, that I only have one lifetime's worth of memories and those memories are unreliable at best.