Well, I just watched Grave of the Fireflies, because I figured I needed catharsis. Given I've broken up and started earnestly trying to feel things what with transition. I have more emotions with HRT, but they're still so shallow.

And yes, the movie was incredibly sad. But I didn't cry, and I feel like if I don't work to hold on to that sad, it'll fade away immediately.

I'm on a low dose of effexor. I wonder if that's blunting my affect. Or am I just a fraction of a person? Am I just some weird automaton, trying to stuff myself with feelings that will never stick?