Like, I used to be not a good person. I've done and said many shitty things, had many shitty opinions, in my life.
I've grown, but it still sticks with me. I don't want that to inform people's opinion of me as a person, or as an admin (if it gets that far) but I can't stop them and frankly, I can't blame them.
I have been accused of being sexually manipulative (and I can understand/see the argument in that case and am deeply ashamed), I have been mutually abusive, I used to be a conservative, then a libertarian, then a liberal, etc. I have been violently emotional, lashed out at people, carried racist thoughts, etc.
I like to think I've grown, and I want to own up to the shitty person I used to be, but it still worries me, as I don't want people to think I'm still that way. I can't stop people, though, and so I just gotta work to be better and better. Prove I'm not that person, y'know?
I personally think that who we used to be heavily influences who we are now, no matter how hard we try to make that not the case. With that in mind, I don't think that anything but complete transparency over who we used to be and what we have done/are doing is warranted.
So. Yeah. That's my readmission of being a formerly shitty person. If you want to unfollow or such, I don't mind.
@ThatVeryQuinn I used to be a prude and also lose my temper easily and it's still a struggle to balance between letting people bother me, blocking them, and lashing out.
@golf_oil I feel you. It's a struggle.
@ThatVeryQuinn We’ve all done shitty things at some point. Respect to you for having the courage to talk about it.
@ghost_bird Yeah, I recognize that, most definitely. Thank you!
@ThatVeryQuinn TBQH the transparency you're striving for speaks volumes about your character.
You know you've made mistakes. You're working not to repeat them.
That is at *least* two steps ahead of the average shitty person, who is usually ignorant of their own personal shortcomings.
So FWIW, I consider you a good. *hugs available if desired*
@Qwyrdo Thanks, heh. I mean, I'm not trying to go for praise here. I just want to get it out there so people know who I am, and there's no ambiguity on that front. ^_^
@ThatVeryQuinn I hope for every shitty person to have growth!!! (I mean if they’re BEING shitty I’ll block but)
@ThatVeryQuinn thank you for sharing this, it must have take you a lot of courage.
@eliotberriot Thank you! I understand what you mean, but I'm not really posting all this for the praise, but truly, thank you. ^_^
@ThatVeryQuinn I don't really know you or your situation or anything, but I really appreciate the sincerity in what you said.
I mean, a lot of people are trying to become better persons. But it's important to now forget how dumb we were before. And how dumb we still are compared to our future selves!
@eliotberriot I get you, and I'm glad you appreciated it.
Very true, though! We just gotta keep working and looking back at who we were to understand who we want to be.
@ThatVeryQuinn A belated welcome to the light side of the force... and you're not the first person I've met who has made that transition. I consider it a feat to be celebrated.
@woozle Thank you!
@ThatVeryQuinn my mantra is “the best apology is changed behavior” I can’t go back and apologize for or fix all the shitty things I did before. But I can do better now. #growth
@BethB That's a good mantra!
And the last thing I want people to think is that I am not 100% transparent about any of this. Idk.