I've become accustomed to talking and thinking about the good things, because dealing with the negative is bad and there be dragons, y'know?
Gotta keep running or you'll collapse.
@ThatVeryQuinn Before transition, I was suppressing a *lot* of stuff just so as to keep moving forward from one day to the next. Dunno if you're experiencing something similar... but the word "dissociation" comes to mind as a thing that was happening a lot.
@woozle I mean, basically, yeah.
I think this might be a survival thing? Like, I've become accustomed to living with emotional disregulation issues that I just avoid bad things entirely to prevent going into The Dark Place.