I dunno.
I rarely have anything to talk about. I rarely feel as if I'm feeling things. I don't know if I'm broken or what but I've been like this for a long time. It makes things weird because of the long silences when it comes to "How are you" questions.
I think this might be a survival thing? Like, I've become accustomed to living with emotional disregulation issues that I just avoid bad things entirely to prevent going into The Dark Place.
@ThatVeryQuinn Before transition, I was suppressing a *lot* of stuff just so as to keep moving forward from one day to the next. Dunno if you're experiencing something similar... but the word "dissociation" comes to mind as a thing that was happening a lot.
@woozle I mean, basically, yeah.
@ThatVeryQuinn I always have trouble with "so, what have you been up to lately?"
1. I know I've been running around doing fifty-leven things, but at the moment can't think of any of them, except
2. whatever I've been mainly working on, which is usually very abstruse and technical and also going very slowly because of all the *other* things I've been working on, and
3. depression and grief and such, which most people don't want to hear about (or at least I assume this) more than occasionally.
@woozle Same though
I've become accustomed to talking and thinking about the good things, because dealing with the negative is bad and there be dragons, y'know?
Gotta keep running or you'll collapse.