So I'm at the Planning Phase and I realize "Hey you should probably go to the hospital for this" but lol Money and also how would anyone in my life take that?
@ThatVeryQuinn 1) you're not a faker. Your feelings are real. 2) not getting help will hurt the people you care about more than admitting you need help will.
@Maenad I've just never felt like this before? Like, I've always been able to brush off being suicidal and ignore it and be a coward and not go through with it but things are Different Now.
@ThatVeryQuinn@Maenad Hey, I won't lie. Living is hard. Making a decision to live is the hard thing. Dealing with depression, dealing with hardships, and if I'm not wrong, dealing with threats of poverty.
You've been strong to come this way.
I think you can stay strong, myself. And there's people out here rooting for you. Promise.
@Maenad@ThatVeryQuinn I kinda think of you as a Zarya given your icon, haha. Though I know you probably feel you can't live up to her, if you're like me.
But I doubt Zarya is strong all the time. Sometimes she probably feels weak, and she needs a friend to support her, too.
But the world is much less bright without a Zarya than with her.
@ThatVeryQuinn If you can't go to the hospital, do absolutely whatever you can. Force yourself into a public space for a while to ride this out, maybe. Go for a walk. Do just about anything you can.
I think things will get better. There's a lot of factors in your life that can change. It just seems far off now -- but life can be wild, and severe changes can happen
@Ulfra_Wolfe I really don't know if I have it in me to work on it any more, to be honest. It's been ten years of working at it and all working at it has done is made things worse.
Suicide Afficher plus
@Maenad And tbh it kind of feels like going to the hospital this time would just be being a coward again.