@CursedConfetti I don't really know anything about the porn scene, but it seems normal to me to be angry about that. Even if they're shitty, it's normal to want to see your work acknowledged. It's really infuriating that you've been reduced to a simple mention…

@Sylvhem

It's really weird mix of feelings, like they just accepted I may as well not be seen again and just move on, but as they should given that I ghosted but that was after 4 years of feeling so excluded from it all

@CursedConfetti :/ What do you plan to do?

@Sylvhem
I don't know, I'm still couch surfing. I'm still (trying to) escort to settle into a place but things are so slow

I tried steemit.com but doesn't seem like I'll gain traction there with what little I have

I wish I could cam again, but my huge struggle last year was chasing after that hope even though I just really needed to get a computer /web set up because I've always been that tightly living rent to rent for so long

@CursedConfetti :( I hope it'll get better really soon for you.

@Sylvhem
Isolation really has fucked with me but fb weirds me out too damn much and trying to be friends with coworkers is to be a creeper at best

And I know it fully is an internalization of bullshit, but I'm too broke to bother making friends. Like the only key is to figure out a way to move into a new place etc etc the cycle keeps going