My body is ok. Everything around me is safe. But as usual so many things are going around and around in my head. The worst of which is thinking I should have started transition much earlier. And life is a video game. Press the reset button. I’m not going to. But the thought...

@NewSammyChan :( *offers hugs*

@SoniEx2 *hugs back* mind doesn’t like me today.

@NewSammyChan I've known you for uh, less than 12 hours apparently, but you seem really nice.

[I'd usually say some nice words here and stuff but I don't know you enough to find the right words. all I can do is talk about myself/how I handle it. but that's been known to cause ideation on others so I won't.]

@NewSammyChan life isn't a game and suicide (or rather, death) is the end goal. there's no point in rushing it, tho. enjoy yourself, because that's all that really matters.

(I don't think life is a game, but this is the closest analogy I can come up with...) is a game really finished if you don't finish the achievements?

@SoniEx2 so true. And I’m not at a suicidal level. I haven’t been like that in over 18 years. But I do wish I came out so much sooner. Seeing all of these young ones doing at a young age what I should have done but was too scared to do.... I’m happy for them. But......