@NewSammyChan it's ok!

I'm out to my family and like one or two IRL friends. I want HRT. but the process is (currently) so complicated that I'm just... idk it's just so much effort that I'd rather wait because I know it'll always be there and I can just do it.

but currently it's more effort than I can handle. and so I wait. dissociation helps me deal with dysphoria. etc. it's uh not great but once I get tired of this or once the process gets easier then I'll go for it.

(don't try to push me, I'd love to do it, I just can't. it's ok. you're ok, too.)