Saia 🐣 @SaiaLePi0u@witches.town

Idée du soir : nommer mon ventilateur Pouf, comme ça Pouf souffle.

me: oh my gooooodddd i'm soooo tired and i don't have any energy

also me: *makes lunch, does the dishes, cleans the livingroom and does the laundry*

For the past 2 weeks I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts. It's exhausting.
I have 3 way to die.
alcohol + drugs
cutting myself
jump (i'm at the 5th floor)

I'm exhausted.

Watch this video, even if you don't watch or know Markiplier (tw health problems)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWICDdKO6vQ

I was at my first pride today! At first I was scared because I was alone but people found me and it was great!!!

Selfie post-CO(loration) #100SelfiesChallenge n°13

#mood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0MK7qz13bU

J'ai dit à l'infirmière qu'un forum avait lancé une campagne de harcèlement contre moi et elle m'a répondu «jeuxvideo.com ?» ils sont tellement grillés 😂

J'ai fait mon CO trans à mon CMP, iels vont me genrer au masculin et m'appeler Saia ! 👌

I'm sad that my simple existence leads people to harass me. But I won't stop existing. I won't stop talking. If I have another occasion to appeared on TV I'll say yes.
I'm stronger than that.

I temporarly desactived my fb account and made my twitter account private. I desactived anons on my curiouscat too.

And… I'm okay. I'm just sad.

A journalist asked me to be in a one minute reportage 2 days ago, I said yes. The reportage was showed 3 times on tv yesterday and was on the website too. 
A french 4chan-like saw it and even if the word «transgender» was never said, they just call me «he» in the video, the 4chan-like started to made a harassement push against me, showing pictures of me, screened my twitter and fb account, sending me hate messages.

J'en ai profité pour lui souffler quelques idées 😇

Tomorrow I'll be on TV for a short reportage and I'll be named Saia and I'll have my beard :3 :3 :3 #transboy #lgbTlobby

I made me puke after seeing this. Since then, I struggle with suicidal thoughts.

I'm such an easy target. Sometimes, like now, I wonder if I made the right decision by saying out loud that I'm an incest victim.

Yesterday I had this message on OKC

#100SelfiesChallenge n°13 blue

They grew up so fast #crochet