When I am tired, when anxiety struck a bit too hard, when I am feeling down, in either of those case : my thoughts start to lose rational meaning.

I know the truth about the situation, I know how people feel about me and the state of my mental health.

Yet my thoughts tend to have me self-blaming myself. To be sad or afraid. And when I think about why. There is no reason. Not any one that I cannot understand and put in context. I am not a bad person. I am not as horrible as my thoughts leads me to think I am. I know it.

So why does it feel so real ? Why am I having those thoughts not anchored in reality ?

No answer I guess.