@Nocta Your english is perfect. :)

And thanks very much. I'm not sure... I don't know how to say this without sounding insensitive. I"m not sure it's his death that I'm grieving over. It's just sometimes I"ll feel this way and be reminded of him and think, "Ah, there's that option," but totally unprompted, like it's not my own thought. It reminds me of him. And I do miss him, terribly.

But again, thank you. A lot.