I am completely fucked up on my prescription meds right now (I take them for migraines) new daily one makes me constantly nauseated and dizzy (might just be adjusting to it, which is normal; have only been on the full dose for a few days) and I had to take my rescue meds for a migraine and I just feel dizzy and hot and cold and awful and I am stuck at work for two more hours and then I have to walk home. I legitimately might throw up on my shoes.

I don't know what I hate more: being in pain or being on these drugs. At least these ones don't affect my mental state (insomuch as they don't actually change who I am as a person, like my last ones).

But I am really considering going back to being on nothing daily and just taking the rescue meds, but I'm afraid that'll sound like drug seeking behavior: no I don't want something that stops the pain I just want something that fucks me up

When in reality it's the opposite: I don't want a preventative because when I take them with the rescue meds which I end up needing anyway my capacity not just to do work but to function as a human being is reduced to just above zero