I don't recall ever feeling seriously depressed before taking antidepressants. I have been very sad. I have been in some dark places. But this is different. This is... exhausted. Numb. I hated how I felt when I was on them, but now that I'm off of them, I just feel so... grey. Faded. It's only been two days, and two and a half weeks since I first lowered my dose. For a hot minute I felt so incredible. So alive. I think I might have been manic.